We Started Nothing
09th April 2007
Monday, April 09, 2007 @ 11:22 am
today. i woke up to have breakfast with mum as usual at 6am.

yesterday, a friend called. she was sad, tired and troubled. troubled and tired from her family life and everything. i can feel that she's really very sad. but i couldnt help her. i dont know what to do. cause i can do nothing.

she told me she is very tired. because she have to do everything very fast, like eating, she has to eat very fast, fearing her baby would cry. when she go toilet, she also have to come out fast, scare of her baby cry. just have to do everything fast.

i can feel she's so stressed up. so i try to joke alittle. she laughed, but i know it isnt real. because i couldnt laugh too. i know she choose her life this way, she can blame noone. i can feel she really regretted it. we cant help. damn it.

but im sorry. cause i can only listen.

sometimes in life, you know its a mistakes. but still you walk into it. only when you regretted then you start thinking about the past. what's the use already? its been done. so get over it and stand up. face it. and if you feel that its wrong already, why continue walking. knowing there's a hole there but still walk straight into it? okay.

everyone made mistakes, learn from it.

oh man, im not angry. im just totally disappointed. if you know its wrong, then turn back. dont tell me all those bullshit when you know it yourself. you can lie to me, but can you lie to yourself? and pls, i know you too well.

i dont see there's a need for you to continue the life you have now. you know that you can do it. and i know you can do it too.


and pls take care of yourself, you know what im saying.